Do you know that there are words that are mostly useless in this world. One of them is "sorry." When the word "sorry" is used, it's often associated with wrong doings with the intention of asking for forgiveness.
Anyway, It's been a while since I wrote on this blog. I'm sorry for the long absence. Oh, did you see what I just did....I just asked for forgiveness of my long absence. But whether I am forgiven or not is not really that important. It is just perfunctory. Honestly, how many people would have cared. The word "sorry" in this context really meant nothing. Of course the seriousness of the matter is nothing either.
Then what if the seriousness of the matter is much more important. For instance, losing an opportunity that leads to a dire situation or worse an incident that causes injuries to another person. In this type of situation, the word "sorry" is most likely offered numerous times. But opportunity needed at that time is gone and injuries were already inflicted. The word "sorry" is really not for the victims but for the person that causes the problem. This is because in many cases, the word "sorry" is useless to the victims. But perhaps, the word "sorry" might offer consolation to the person who is the source of the problem.
Let me share with you an incident that occurred to me. I have been in the dumps for a while now due to many reasons. To make the long story short, I am in short of money, and was unable to find a decent job despite all that college education I have. So, I picked up an odd job at a warehouse. As an hourly wage worker, every hour of my sweat is money that I desperately need. However. one day, my boss came to me and said, I need to clock out because I had worked more than I should according to regulation. Hey,I may be poor, but not dump. I asked for the reason as I knew I have not reached the maximum hours that regulation had mentioned. But my boss insisted that I clocked out.
I was tired as I was working night shift. Plus in a labor intensive work, I really do not have much energy to reason my way though, so I went home. However, I realized I was penalized for clocking out early since I didn't fulfilled my required work hours. I later found out that everything that had happened was an error on the management part. So, when I confronted my boss about the matter...you guessed it, I have given that most useless word, "sorry." Really, did sorry help me earn more money? The opportunity for me to earn more money is gone. I had to tighten my belt a few more notches because or some errors with the management. I was given many "sorry" but no one really understood the damage that was done.
What is the situation is more dire, especially in an abusive situation. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." Huh, the word "sorry" is really useless in my opinion. In an abusive situation, whether it is verbal or physical abuse, it is something that is already done and cannot be taken back. Just like squeezing out the toothpaste from it's tube, you can never put it back. Sorry is absolutely useless. The pain and the hurt that were inflicted never disappear.
It's funny how the word "sorry" was offered to the victim, which is absolutely useless. But to the person who offered the word, it justified his/her wrong doings. It give that person consolation, because of that mentality, "I already said I am sorry." Now, do you see why I think the word "sorry" is actually one of the most useless word in the world.
Along with the word "sorry," another useless word is "why." Why? Haha...that was meant to be funny. Just like sorry, "why" is equally useless. Of course, this is context depended. Asking why in the classroom is very much welcome word by teachers. But when asking "Why my life sucks?" The word "why" becomes a useless word. There is no why in such context.
You can tell, I have been pondering on this word for a while now, especially when my life is currently in the dumps. The word "why" often popped up in my mind. "Why my life is in the dumps?" "Why this happened to me?" "Why can't I have a peaceful life?" "Why can't I be happy?" Well, there are plenty of "why" I can continue, but they are all useless. Because, there are no proper answers to them. The best answer I have is, "It's karma." Yes, it must have been "karma." Of course, this is not the answer I was looking for. Then again, what was I looking for. In this context, the word "why" is really useless.
In my current situation, I don't need "sorry" or "why." I just need money. But I don't have enough money, so I can only eat brownie cookie to ease my mind. I just need something delicious to suppress my stress. Haha...does it work? Well, you will just have to try it.
Here's the link to the recipe I used: https://ciao.kitchen/brownie-cookies/
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